New people,
New friends,
And my courage is gone.
I feel weak and nervous. I do not know what to say or what to do.
I feel like the odd one out, yet I am no different than any other new comer.
I am shy and I need not be.
They do not know me.
I do not them; it scares me.
Where is the old me that used to not care? I just went to have fun.
It is hard to be so far from home in a place that is not home to me. It is beautiful here, but it is not home. I do not know how to get over the homesickness. I know I will not be away forever, but it seems like forever.
When will I just be able to go do things to explore this new place?
When will I be happy again?
When will I know what to do each day?
I wish I knew what I could do. I wish I knew how to survive. I wish I knew who I am.
I must push myself to grow. I must try to make friends. I must become who I am.
Even though I am not home, I must try to make the best of where I am. I am not here for no reason at all.
Please pray for me in my journey this fall,
Riely Marie W.
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